Monday, April 25, 2011

S4x11: "Isaac Priscilla Frenkie @ Frenky?"

On this episode, I have one thing to share with you guys fellow readers. It's already the end of semester 4, basically it's almost the season finale of fertalicious so delicious. Since the first season I have different neighbours (which I'm referring to my roommates) moved in and out all the time. And this time, my latest neighbour has left town today.

Frankie Ishak Tan is one crazy roommate. This season has been a blast for me. Any changes that occurred in my life this sem, he was always there to witness, joke about it and yea we are crazy roommates. He called himself Isaac Frank on FB, but I have several names for him such as Isaac Priscilla. Why? Well...if you watch American Virgin, then you'll know. Despite, his laziness to wake up early in the morning this dude over here is nocturnal! Yea! NOCTURNAL BIG TIME! Supplier of the TV series and great video producer!. Practiced my American accent with him and yea of course those lines from TV series. Besides, he's a very good listener. Another thing, about this episode banner...hurm...why Frenky? why Frenkie? hahaha...He loves sending his clothes to the laundry shop and yea that Akak over there spelled his name as Frenky...after quite a time she realised that she'd misspelled his name as Frenky and corrected it to Frenkie which is also wrong. Funny huh, this guy relax je, in fact he could laugh about it.

"Hey, Frank (son of Mariah Carey), if you're reading this I would like
you to know that YOU ARE THE CRAZIEST roommate I ever had"
So fellow readers, that's it. The latest neighbour of mine has just moved out (he's now in LA). Another neighbour of mine has been killed off the storyline in my life (don't wish to tell you guys more about this person). And now it's up to the new season. Season 5 of my life in completing my first degree. I wonder who would be my new neighbour next season.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

S4x10: Cliffhanger?


You know what..this thing has been happening to me for years. Yea, people will think I'm the black devil because I put up the attitude. What's with my attitude? Hurm....When I'm annoyed I'll give "THE ATTITUDE". It's difficult handling things that involved girls. Look at the picture of Emma Stone in the film Easy A. I can see me facing the same thing as she did. People will keep blaming you..and guess what...FINE! If people really think that I've changed, then I would change myself. Let's amuse for this one time them since they have nothing else better to do than hurting others. 

Let me share with you guys a little bit about my history. Socialising? Yea, dats my habit. For over years, I've been hanging out with so many people in my life. I realised that the way I spoke to people varies according to my level of respects for them. I believe the same principle applied to you as well (you may not realise this but yes, it's just us being mankind). You have to know that the level of care fluctuates with time. There are times when you will portray extra care, times when you don't feel like you wanna care and more. You cannot expect me to be caring and reliable 24-7 it's not like you're my soulmate or something. SO PLEASE WAKE UP! I've had enough with this friendship thingy in my life. I hate having go through this over and over again. The best way is just to ignore, but this time I'm really gonna change. I've decided.

 My friend once said to me;
"Fert, they have to understand you are not just anyone...
you have a position right now, huge responsibility that you have to look up to".

Yea, you're right

It's time for me to really take in the attitude as a leader, act like one, talk like one and finally be one. I realised that I'm not that mature, but it's time to open up and get it done. God destined me to take this responsibility and I believe that He really wants me to change myself into someone better. 

To my five dearest friend. Thank you for bearing with me, my attitude, my whines and the best part understand the problem and phase I'm going through. Instead you guys are helping me through it. Every time when I decided to eat alone I imagine you guys sitting around me joking and so on. It healed me up without having to let you guys hear all whines I've got. And sometimes I imagine..what's next?

Life is a cliffhanger...sometimes you would never know what happen next..the a few seconds time...

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

S4x09: Color and Light

I was not in a pretty good condition like I used to be when I'm in my exam week. Last semester was fun and great. Last minute study really works for me. Maybe because I worked hard in the beginning. The truth is, every time when there's exam I realized that there'll be people around motivating me. Last semester I have my SBN senior Ejat Rotifers and  Ms Izyan Khalid  gave me a few words of wisdom. When this semester began, I have Ms Izyan giving me some motivational words so that I'll focus and score. The starting was great. Then I have Ms. Faliq, Mr. Aweng, Puan Aslina, some of the SBS4 seniors, classmates and some friends I met on the way going to office, etc telling me to stay strong. "Fert, you can do it". If they know how much I'm screwing up. Haiyah Fert! Why did you always look for trouble in life. BUT THEN, when I cleared my mind, sat down on my study table I realized that those words actually help. The crowd kept me going. Why am I so scared of failing when the battle is not over yet. Quitter or Winner? Then I saw this.... 

Life is filled with colors and lights, hope and faith, failure and triumph. By reciting words from Quran, praying to the Almighty and motivational words from seniors, lecturers and friends I could feel the energy being pumped into me. The spirit to study.

Fert, you can do it. Never give up. Paint in some color in your life, live the light on in you.

-for Him, for your religion, for your family, for your country and for your friends first then for you will be completed-

Saturday, April 9, 2011

S4x08: "I killed a lizard, and it was BRUTAL"

Yes, I did it. I think this is my second post that involves a creature named LIZARD. I'm sorry but I have to. I was left with no other options. Shoo-ing it away would not be the best solution, lizards are annoying they'll come back and poop even more. Yea, talking about lizards' poop @ droppings (since they fall all the way from the ceiling to where mankind settled down in their so called civilized world). I was housekeeping today when I saw one, crawling happily from one corner towards my roomate's (Frankie) personal space or should I say personal ceiling area. So I took a hanger (in Malay it is called Penyangkut) and yes...I hit it hard and it fell on my bed; half-paralysed. Then I took it and threw it out of the window.


I'm staying in the third floor.

When I peeped through my window. I could no longer see the half-paralysed lizard.

Gosh. One down, three to go.

*Thought of keeping some of them for my friend Izzaty Iqlima. Kalau buat sup cicak ni sedap~ 

Monday, April 4, 2011

S4x07: I'm NOT the GUY

Yes, it was unplanned at first. Yes, it was against my desire at the beginning. 
But things changed......

They told me, there's more to it than just a pose. They said it is called knowledge, challenge, experience, education all those words which I love the most. 
But, Yes. True. They are right.

It really has been a while since the last post. I was undergoing a very difficult transition in my life which I never really expected at the first place. I took part in the campus election. Pressure was from everyone including those who you think are a friend of yours and would be able to understand you way better. But nope, one just sink into the venomous sting of gossiping an yet exert an extra "Pal Support". In fact, I've never really seen myself as The President until I'm actually one now. Sometimes I wish I could just stop sharing things with my friends because I know it annoys them to listen to this. Damn, this is difficult. Another thing is that, I realised how people just don't care about my feelings, as long as they get what they want and that's it. They treat you as if you're a dog and WOW. You know, you might be screwing with the wrong guy because I'm not the guy who will just keep the pain in my ass tightly in my pants. Dictatorship~partly beneficial in this case. Oh MY! There goes my bitchy whines. See the YELLOW POSTER thingy? Yea, I know it's me in it. This is what they posted on FB. This is my worst fear ever. Life really changed now, I no longer have the same mood to revise for my finals and yeah, distracted by the words of snobbish human being. I can see that my personal progress's graph is going down in flames. I'm about to meet Mr. Failure.


-No More Election/Presidential Talk, I promise-


I'm really to let go. The thing that I loved the most. The thing which I really hope could make a difference in my four years life in this "wonderful home". I'm annoyed, I'm tired and I just couldn't take it anymore. I need 'em to be independent, I need 'em to stop relying too much when they have proven their capabilities with them commenting on my decisions and my alternatives to help improve the team. The best part, putting the blame on me when they are not willing to give all out and learn. People, me myself face the same thing when I first arrange events, etc. You need to survive the red tapes. I realise that I can no longer be there for 'em. I don't think they see what I'm going through in my life because what's more important is theirs. So, I'm letting it go this time. I don't mind being part of the crowd because I wanna see you handle things, since you know so much about it. I will always be there to support. And of course, it's not the entire crowd giving me THIS. Most of them are beautiful and supportive. I love them very much and stepping down is partly to maintain the love I have for 'em because I don't want things to change.

Yes, I know the joy of putting everything on me. It's very easy.

I'm NOT the GUY
-most people will not get this, but some will-

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