Friday, December 30, 2011


I went back home to Penang to clear my mind and get a few things done.
I'm losing grip of my current life and it is vital to pull em back together.

I really wanna learn something, something huge that could push me back on track..and yes..I did..

It was Allah, He lets me see it.

The khutbah jumaat was awesome. It's about FASSAD = kerosakan. The khatib told us how in this 
current world, we, the human beings are living in fassad; where our minds, thoughts and act are filled with bias judgement and corrupted with khurafat so as lagha`. The khatib explained to us about the factors contributing to this:

#1: Allah is angry and displease with His servants who went against His saying i.e. disobeying Allah
Allah murka dengan hambaNya yang tidak taat padaNya

this is related to what we have done, we took advantage of the benefit and peaceful life that we're leaving in and we forget about our Creator yet we went against Him.

#2: The problem lies in us
Diri kita sendiri

We chose not to do the right thing, we were so caught up in the FUN the world is offering us today that we forget our responsibility. When there's an opportunity to be close to Him, we chose to postpone and distance ourselves. 

#3: Choice of friends
Pilihan sahabat

It's popular isn't it: the analogy between being a friend to a man who sells perfume and a man who make/sell steels.

“Diumpamakan rakan yang soleh dan rakan yang jahat ialah seperti (berkawan) dengan penjual minyak wangi dan tukang besi. Penjual minyak wangi tidak akan mensia-siakan anda, sama ada anda membelinya atau hanya mendapat bau harumannya. Tukang besi pula boleh menyebabkan rumah anda atau baju anda terbakar, atau mendapat bau busuk.”
Hadis al-Bukhari dari Abu Musa al-Asy'ari,

In this current world, we chose to distance ourselves from a friend who visits surau/masjid regularly but we find it fun and cool to hang out with those who are less pious, sporting and fun.

#4: The environment we're leaving in today
Persekitaran kita

the khatib told us, that in life, Islam has told us to have a deep passion in learning and acquiring knowledge. Today, we assume 'knowledge' are the ones we learn in classroom and what was taught on the whiteboard but this is not enough. Learning about Islam (my & our religion) creates stability and a direction towards a more planned and structured yet peaceful life. A simple situtation to test ourselves where are we right now?

There's a ceramah in surau/masjid VS visiting Pesta Pulau Pinang?

theory of positiveness stands here, because when you are among lagha, fun and irresponsible environment you'll adapt and behave like one. Why not choose to attend Majlis Ilmu, which gives us various point of view about life, guides us towards a better and a more devoted connection to Allah. It is this that we'll help us build up from the inside.   

#5: Our Solat
Solat kita

Most of us (Penang Island muslims which are the minorities) chose to neglect this very important responsibility as a muslim. Solat is only carried out in the moment of need and difficulties. Solat is the foundation to our religious value and beliefs. Where does our principle in life stands now? Most of us when we listen to azan we ignore it even though it is a call for muslims to get together in our house and pray, create the positive energy among us. 

and then the khatib shared with us some POV on how to help guide yourselves to the right path. The saying that struck me most is this:

#1: You choose to change your fate

Most of the times, we chose to blame others that our life is a misery. We blamed our creator from creating us this way. If we want a better life, that we have to change, berhijrah. Admit to yourselves that you have a problem, and decide that you wanna change and it's time for you to do so.

#2: Transform your lifestyle

Your solat and sedekah will help make you feel much better and have a firm control of your life. Change how you look at life and how you look at our Islam religion. Be devoted to Allah by performing ibadah and speaking to Him more often when your in the good or bad times.

#3: Your circles

Of course you would be needing a positive example to lead you to the right direction. Approach friends who loves surau/masjid talk to them, exchange ideas and views. Visit surau/masjid and listen to ceramah/kuliah/classes with the aim to learn and have a better grip of your life. the khatib also mentioned:

Kalau ada dok bergaduh2 tu, p la minta maaf..berbaik semula...kita ni golongan minoriti kat Pulau Pinang ni, tok sah dok bergaduh, berhasad dengki. Berbaik sesama saudara seislam kita, berjemaah la mai surau buktikan ukwah islam kita..

Dear readers, I know there will be some of you who will say...apelah Fert ni, bajet baik..pandai sangat ka ilmu agama ni nak post macam ni...Deny it all you want but I know this culture exist among us. 
You see, I'm sorry..
I know where I stand and I admit my weakness. I never thought this content of khutbah jumaat would struck me like this. I have been a very bad muslim. I admit that I am Islam but failed to portray what is being thought to me  and act like one. I know this is because of lacking of knowledge and understanding. That's why I need to post this, it's a reminder for me..maybe if you've known this.... well is good... but for those who's caught up in the same problem as me you don't wanna miss reading is. Give yourself a wake up call.

It's difficult to make a change..that's why I need to start at a slow pace.


Thursday, December 29, 2011

S6E06: When your jantung rasa macam terhenti, jatuh & pecah atas lantai...

I'm back home because I need to clear out my minds.

A very malfunction Fert this semester, is not helping me 
to move forward instead moving backward is all I want.

Damn it.

Well, It's suppose to be an awesome getaway until I received an SMS:

Dr. Kassim minta kamu setelkan semua assignment dgn dia by tomorrow.
Please do contact him rite now. Carry mark anda sgt rendah tq.

KABOOOOSHHHH!!!!! Dah la I tgh down, lagi la...jantung rasa mcm stop jap and jatuh atas lantai
nak pecah pun ada...

OMG, What have I done with my life....I xpnah mcm ni...Where have I put my parents hope
and my responsibility. That was the moment when my bro's face appeared when he told me all 
I need to do in UMK study and get the best result. Because I was so down bila masuk UMK & dapat course pelik kan. Expectation family mestilah tinggi.

So I called Dr. Kassim, and Dr. cakap carry mark saya 17 shj? OMGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
17? This is no good at all...Fert, you've been a bad boy, a very bad boy....
bila nak insaf and sedar ni?

Dear readers, tolonglah doa sama-sama ngan saya minta saya dekat dengan-Nya

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

S6E05: We Malays call it PASRAH

When we got devastated because of dysfunction in love relationship. This is what we do, listen to break up songs. Here's a very awesome song which I can relate and hope it'll bring me closer to my creator. It's just that I'm not Erra Fazira la peeps...Hahaha...

Ingin ku sendiri 

Meniti hari 

Kala sunyi 
Yang melanda sepi 
Alam bisu 
Bagaikan mengerti 
Berakhirnya sebuah memori 
Ingin ku melangkah 
Membawa diri 
Kerna cinta 
Yang dikhianati 
Luka rasa untuk menghadapi 
Pengorbanan tidak dihargai 
Kini aku... Pasrah 
Dengan segalanya 
Kepedihan itu 
Masih terasa 
Apakah salahku 
Apakah dosaku 
Tuhan berilahku petunjukmu 
Redha dengan kehendakmu 
Cukup kali ini 
Kau menyakiti 
Tak usahlah kembali 
Dengan rela hati 
Melepas kau pergi... 
Ingin ku sendiri 
Meniti hari 
Kala sunyi 
Yang melanda sepi 
Alam bisu 
Bagaikan mengerti 
Berakhirnya sebuah memori

Asyik dengar lagu break up maki hamun, payah jugak...lirik ni decent la sket, so aku pun layan...

Monday, December 26, 2011

S6E04: Guilty Pleasure

Hey guys, I dunno what to say but if my mom finds out, I'm so doomed! So doomed!

You peeps know I've not been myself enough these days. I'm goin through a rough passage in my life now..
yea3x I get it you guy've been listening to the same line for the past 3 posts..

This time I'm bringin in Frankie and FRENS!! Hahaha..the true guilty pleasure!

We went out today to have fun so that I can forget the pain I'm going can be a therapy for dudes too y'all.


#1: Buy yourself Strawberry marshmallow cheesecake, crazy choc & blueberry cheesecake at Secret Recipe and eat em like a pig

#2: Try out something unusual, like trying out a red skinny pants in Brand Outlet
(or you can just buy em if you're chinese enough)

 we bought RM150 worth skinny jeans n tees

#3: Sympathize a disable cat 
(Kesian la kat kucing2 OKU, this cat actually ran towards us sebab nak lintas sekali, it's disabled
one front leg seemed retard)

#4: Go to Wakaf Che Yeh and hope you'll get laid

#5: McDonalized your life!

and of course you'll be needing a Guest Star like this superb yet awesome Frankie to help you get through a painful divorce! Hahahaha....

Till then peeps..


Sunday, December 25, 2011

S6E03: Cleaning Up!

This is one of the worst semester. Waking up in a pile of clothes, limited moving space per student, and yea probs+probs+probs+stress+f**ked up life = No more Bree week.

What's a Bree Week?

According to Doc Fert Hunt Salvatore, a specialist in dusting and stressing out - Bree Week can be defined as 7 days of working my our ass of to keep up a good hygienic level and a proper yet decent life.

So while listening to Moves Like Jagger, I googled "Cleaning Up":

and here goes a very good reason for you to plan your daily life a create a check list specially for cleaning up something like a duty roaster:

Top 10 Reasons to You’ll Love Using Let’s Clean Up Checklist!

1.  Don't spend another moment thinking about your cleaning schedule. 
You already have enough to keep track of without trying to figure out which chores need doing.

2.  Your kids will be more cooperative. 
Ask most kids to clean their room, and you’re likely to get a whole lot of complaining and not nearly enough cooperation. This part is kinda tricky, me no have babies....

3.  You'll know when you’re done.

4.  Your life will be easier if you stop being a "binge" cleaner.
A binge cleaner when you only clean because of some emotional occasion, this is me. Every single time I felt  super hurt, I'll start cleaning

5.  You'll be able to stop nagging your spouse and your kids about cleaning.

6.  Family members will understand exactly what they need to do.
Yea with the checklist written (something like duty roasters you can guide everyone in the house and remind them about what they should do.

7.  Reduce allergy symptoms.

8.  You’ll never be faced with an overwhelming list of chores again.
Consistency is the key to success I bet :)

9.  You won’t have to worry about what visitors think when they come to your home.
Yea, when people came into my room, look at my place mesti diorang tempat YDP camni ke? Bla3x...
The place condition reflects the state of mind of that person

10. Your home will be a more attractive and comfortable place in which to live.
I envy Asyraf Hanafi's place, dah macam hotel room dah..ngan lampu study nye...haih~

That's it for today, UMK peeps jangan lupa study and pray for our success..finals next week!


S6E02: Renee Perry in da HOUSE!!

It's time for me to bring in a guest star which I love and adore.

On this special post, I'm bringin in Vanessa Williams who plays Renee Perry in Desperate Housewives.

To those who's always stuck up in a miserable love relationship you just got to read these quotes,
its from Renee:

#1: Confident
"Well, a beautiful, classy woman who can get a 
man without leaving the house...I don't see us being friends." 

#2: Honest

"If I never tell Lynette what happened, then my 
friendship with her is not real."

#3: Sarcastic
"I suppose it is a time to be thankful. And I'm thankful I'm not her."

#4: Funny
"I haven't celebrated my birthday since the third time I turned 28."

#5: A Natural
"If he doesn't appreciate what he's got..I will find someone who does."

These quotes are applicable to anyone...anytime, you just need to suite 'em to your condition/case. The message this amazing character is trying to send is that life has a lot to offer. Sometimes you might find yourself caught up is a one-way relationship or your partner is not responding exactly how special relationship should work than you know that there's a problem. Sometimes you might come across answers such as "I'm not ready", "I'm not sure how I felt about you"..oh crap..when you're in love everything will be spontaneous..from having zero knowledge about love to yeah, I know what to do in a relationship. So if this happen, you know its a one-way. If you're persistent enough fight till you get what you want and a lot of suffering will take a place, if you're a vice's better to admit that you're hot and you can do way better with a two-way relationship. Thank goodness they brought her in the last two season. She spice things up in Desperate Housewives. Loves you Renee! 

Saturday, December 24, 2011

S6E01: Moving On...

It's funny how things are,
It's funny how things turn out to be,
It's funny how you try to deal with 'em.


that's a cover+up word, I'm sure you guys know that. That's what most of us do to survive and cope with
whatever life puts us through. Suffering from the inside but all perfect from the outside. Let it be one hell of a day or a day in heaven we all pretend hoping to portray the best image of ourselves.

My life is always in a big mess. I screw up most of the times, do irresponsible and yea 'funny' things too.
That's the complicity of being a homosapien..err..I mean being Fert.

My President year is almost over, I have this partial satisfaction on the things I've contributed to my friends
and university. Coffee with Prof, PERMATA Award, Consultation Meetings, Online Management System and yea all the speeches to open up everyone minds and inject a little spirit and motivation so as catering to welfare issues is still not enough. Couldn't imagine how am I gonna start my life not being important anymore. On top of that, I've got this huge problem with my love life this semester. Everything at once and KABOOSH I'm so going down.

When this happen, we have no other options left but to


So here are some tips on how to be a 'fake':

#1: Start with imagining yourself putting all your emotions in a box (like what Jeren drew up here)

#2: Put on the best honest smile you have and open your eyes wide
(*only if you're chinese then forget the eyes part)

#3: Stand straight and take a deep breath

#4: Pretend as if your acting in a famous television series
(Renee/Bree from DH, Santana from Glee, Megan Hunt from Body Of Proof, 
Stefan & Damon from Vampire Diaries or Barney Stinson from HIMYM)

#5: Throw in some innocent jokes and spontaneous compliments in your conversations
(this is the art of distraction, if someone asked you something you don't wanna dwell at the moment)

Just give these tips a try and see if things work out..

Saturday, December 3, 2011

S5E05: How should things end?

F.S.D Season 5 is the worst season I would say, I seldom update my blog and yea my life is hell of a mess this semester. I'm caught up with a huge responsibility which I think I have totally failed in fulfilling it.

My love life?
Very pathetic I tell you..hahaha

Never ever fell in love with the right person, now and before? Yup. Never.

Been played always.  

Fert,'re a freaking stupid dumb ass. You restrict yourself from letting your heart melt the pass 5 years, and got weak in just a few days. That person will never love you (wake up), that person will never ever be able to be there for you (wake up), you're just a toy (wake up)...

Another wake up call huh? Damn fert! Damn!

Inilah akibat layan lagu Adele banyak sangat...Someone Like You, Lovesong, I won't Go, Don't You Remember...I got her entire album anyway...

So the big question is..How should things end in a never existing relationship?

You could never remain friends and pretend everything is just fine, you'll be in a deep pain so might as well end it now. That's my answer, to any of you out there..this is an official Fert's wake up call...Draw the line now before you inflict more pain to your fragile heart

You know you love me

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